Thursday, December 6, 2012

Break From the past . To America, the land of opportunities! (P4)


My life now revolved round the new- born and the twins who took all of my time and energy.  Chandran being more and more busy with various assignments,  he found less and less time to be around us.
  Around this time my parents came to visit us for they were yet to see all my children. It was such an happy occasion, even Chandran took some time off and we went around various places in Australia. Those days bungee jumping was the craze, some brave people undertook this to prove to themselves that they could overcome their fear of heights. I was really fascinated by the thrill of this sport. I too wanted to experience it .
  What better occasion then now, I thought, with my parents here to look after my kids while I took  the plunge. Well although, on an impulse,  I had decided to jump, but as the time got closer and closer to the jumping part,  I was very nervous, I got paranoid with all kinds of crazy feelings going round my mind, like : what would happen if I went and hit something and got badly hurt, or what if I had an heart attack and died, who will look after my three little kids, what if I had a stroke,  have I really gone crazy signing up for this kind of sport when I have so many responsibilities, I should just turn back. but the words of Chandran kept coming to my mind :" do it Sudha you will love it, there is no danger, once you have gone through it you will come back for more. If anything bad were to happen  it could happen even inside the house,  or for that matter anywhere, one should not let negative thoughts put a stop on all the things that we want to experience." Well he can say:  for he had already jumped many times and in so many different ways.  How was I to overcome this fear, that was gnawing inside me?

I had to overcome fear of fear, and just do it ! I just have to take a deep breath and just let go of the fear.... I had to somehow break through this fear, for as someone once said: on the other side of fear lies everything we ever wanted.

Was it as simple as that : yes it had to be for there  was no time to debate, and it was my turn now: the instructor had already started to count 10, 9,8,7,6,5....my God, the time has come for me to  jump !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and.........with my heart almost in my mouth I.... jumped ....... initially I felt as though, I was almost dying, the fear of reaching  nowhere was really very terrifying, but soon, my mind became totally blank...my fear magically transformed itself into a sense of great joy, a sense of freedom,  a feeling so great that words can never describe them.
 Soon I was back, and like all others who had shouted that they have done the most incredible thing in their lives, I too shouted out in joy in the same manner, for believe me it was indeed the most  incredible and wonderful experience, and I had done it!
    I was really glad to be back in one piece and  also happy to have overcome the fear. Soon it was time for my parents to leave, and I was a little upset, for I had got used to their presence so much. But they have their own lives, and they can't be with me forever. 
Once again, it was time for us to move to the US, because Chandran's company wanted him to handle some major projects there.
  The idea of going to the US did not appeal to me so much. Moving to a new place,  trying to settle to a new way of life was too daunting. Having tasted life in Australia, it was very difficult to move away from it so easily. Somehow, the thought of leaving this country bothered me,  I had loved this place, our house, our life,  despite the frequent travels of Chandran,  Oh, we were so happy, it was not easy for me to leave all this....
Chandran, as usual said I should not be so negative about every thing.  He was quite happy to  move. I too brainwashed myself to thinking happy thoughts about that country and happily prepared myself, to move along with him.
America, here we come!!!
  
(to be continued soon)

32 comments:

  1. Love this story, Rama, you are so adventuresome!
    No photos of you flying through the air?

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    1. Thank you Jerry for loving the story.Unfortunately no pictures.

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  2. Oh ! it was a long long time back I was here. Interesting and talking abt Bungee Jumping - I just did it this time into the gorge over Victoria falls. Believe me ! that was an experience of life time. One does think abt what happens if I get a heart attack and die :-) and then u know our karma siddhanta comes to rescue that nothing happens until it is supposed to happen and then I jumped :-)

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    1. Good for you Shanthi, now oyu tooo can shout to the world saying you have done it.Thanks for stopping by and sharing your experience. Wow! Victoria Falls!

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  3. ummm...bungee jumping...cool..I never dare to do anything related with heights.. :) So, let's see what's in store in the coming parts..

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    1. I can understand your fear, we all have our fears to deal with. Lots of intersting developments in the coming parts.
      Thanks Latha.

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  4. I am really scared of these adventure things like bungee jumping etc.

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    1. Yes it is scary in the beginning. Even I am scared of roller coaster, though I have been in one many years ago.
      Thanks Rachna.

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    2. @Rachna..Girl, I thought you are a very brave adventurous woman :) NO Bungee jumping?? hehe..thanks for the company :)

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  5. I used to be very adventerous but after kids I no more have the courage to try crazy rides. But one day I would love to try parajumping.
    I love the way you write Rama:)

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    1. I am sure your wish would be fulfilled, when the right comes, we would all be somehow ready for the challenge.
      Thanks Kavita

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  6. I've always wanted to bungee-jump! Even if my heart is in my mouth, I would like to take the plunge. And your experience inspires me to do it at the very next opportunity. From Australia to America - one long haul move, eh?! Waiting to hear the rest of it :)

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    1. Good RGB, I am sure you would do it one day.
      Thanks a lot for stopping by.

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  7. bungee jumping..wow...I am really scared of that.

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  8. Yes Renu, some sports are indeed scary, but despite the fear, I don't know why we want to try them, putting our lives at risk.
    Thanks.

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  9. Bungee jumping and paragliding is something that I want to do, sometimes!
    Looking forward to your adventures in the US of A!! :)

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    1. I am sure you will find the opportunity to do both. There are so many adventure sports, even I want to do many things in my life. Thanks Shilpa.

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  10. beautiful description. Have you experienced bungee jumping? and those words of chandran to sudha about "... if anything bad had to happen, it could hapeen in the house....". I often hear these lines from my husband, whenever i have negative thoughts or am scared to do something adventorous.
    What i meant to say was it is so realistic.

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    1. Asha ,I am so glad you could relate to the story. Stories based on reality, even though peppered with some imagination added to spice it up would always sound realistic.
      Thank you so much.

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  11. Nice.We have to change the destination when destiny demands so.

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    1. Thanks rudrapriya, I totally agree with that statement.

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    2. "The other side of fear lies all that we wanted". quite true . isn't it?

      Following you to the USA.

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    3. Sure, it is readers like you, who keep me going. Thanks for your support.

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  12. Thanks, Rama, for visiting my blog... You have long blog posts... I shall return here to read them at my leisure.

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    1. No problem Pradeep. I follow your blogs, and if I find something I can easily relate to, I drop in and post a comment.
      Thank you.

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  13. Bungee jumping.. I expected a photo of you shouting with joy bungee jumping.. Eager to read your adventures in USA...

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    1. I wish I had a photo. Well the adventures in the US are going to be of a different kind, more mental than physical.
      Thanks for your comment Harikrishna.

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  14. I am sure your time spent on this story is gratifying, you are truly doing a beuatiful narration, it takes us in to their lives.. look forward to more.. I wish I had done some illustrations for this lovely story!

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  15. I know, I like the illustrations that come along with stories in Kalki, Kumudam, and all such Tamil magazines. I used to love those illustrations very much, and I even did a short course in that with one of the more popular illustrators.
    However, all that was done when I was young, I have lost interest in such drawings, though I do like them very much.
    I am glad that you like the story. Thank you Padmaja. Are you in Bangalore?

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  16. From one part of the globe to another. Waiting to hear your trysts. I am sure it must be interesting.

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  17. A delightful read and the experience of bungee jump was incredible, Rama:)

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  18. Good for you, rama, that you jumped! Living in Australia must have enriched your experience of life and create so many nice memories. What is more important in life than create memories for the times we will not be able to move around anywhere?!

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