Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Mother's Day Magic!!!



Thoughts and images of my mother keep popping up in my mind every day in one way or other, and I am sure we all share this experience about people whom we love or loved very much. Many a time I have imaginary conversations with my mother, my father and other people whom I really love as though they were right there in front of me.

Being bombarded by the print media, electronic media, social media by the myriad advertisements about Mother's day, I feel sad as nowadays I don't have much to write about my mother. It is not that there is really nothing to write, but still I could not think of writing / sharing anything about her here in my blogs. It has been 3 years to the day since I last wrote about her on Mother's day.

I was cooking as usual, making Rasam (a watery soup like dish), and some potato curry to go along with it. The aroma of tamarind, the rasam powder, the tomatoes along with curry leaves boiling started wafting throughout the house, which is not unusual. But today the aroma was a little different and special : it was the same aroma that I used to get whenever my mother made Rasam in our home !

I have been making Rasams for so many years, and it would always taste good. But only on rare occasions did I manage to replicate the aroma brought out by my mother's magical Rasam. At that moment, I would get so excited and shout out to the whole family that " today the Rasam smells just like Patti's (grandma's) Rasam and also tastes just like hers". I would dramatise it so much, that my children in the innocence of the very young would really believe that they were indeed tasting the best Rasam made especially for them by their grandma.





My mother would also invariably make an accompaniment for her heavenly Rasam - boiled potatoes coated with thinly sliced, finely chopped onions fried together so that the potatoes get a coat of the brown, self caramelised onions.



With no deliberate intent and by sheer coincidence, I made this type of Potato curry and Rasam today on Mother's day! And not just that : today my mother seemed to be by my side throughout, guiding me, tutoring me to create the utterly heavenly, delicious tasting Rasam and Potato curry.




"Magic exists. Who can doubt it, when there are rainbows and wild flowers, the music of winds and the silence of the stars?
Anyone who has loved has been touched by magic.
It is such a simple yet an extraordinary part of the lives we live".



I find no words in my dictionary to describe the aroma or the taste of the Rasam and potato curry that my mother (my mother's soul) and I made today.


Thank you Amma, for being with me even when you are no longer here in this world : a magic that only mothers can accomplish!


Let there be some magic in your day too!

Happy Mother's Day Everyone!

Sunday, April 26, 2015

Thoughts Raining In My Mind....




As I  stood watching the thunder storm and the rains from our balcony,  I felt, all of a sudden, so much at peace with myself and the surrounding. It led me to wonder,  was there any moment in my life that I want to go back and re live again, did I miss any part of my life now?
The answer was a big 'No'.
I have lived in so  many places all over India, and loved each and every place, (some more of course), but do I want to go back and live the life I had lived , the answer was again: "No".
I mentally went through many of my experiences both good and bad, and felt happy thinking about them.
I am happy that, I still have photographic memory of each and everything that has happened till now, however, I neither want to change them, nor re live that life again.
Each event of the past showed me how I had automatically changed, sometimes in small ways and sometimes very drastically, and how those changes happened,  not by the influence of others but of my own free will. I was neither influenced by my parents, my in laws, my friends nor by my husband.




Now at this late stage of my life, I am still drawn towards new things, have new aspirations, new desires, new goals to follow through. I am so happy in the present, and the dreams I have woven for my future keeps egging me to dream on, keep wishing on, and gives me the confidence to look at all these things passing in front of me like pictures on a movie screen, making me feel in some weird kind of way, that theses things have actually happened  in the future.
I really feel thrilled with such thoughts floating inside me, and as I stand waiting for them to happen in their  own beautiful way (much better than I have been led to imagine), I feel : "They also serve who only stand and wait". ( Milton)
This might sound strange, but the meanings change, and may mean different things to different people according to the changes in their thought process, and their attitude  towards life.
I feel, the time has come in my life when I don't have to do anything, yet I would end up getting more than I wished for.
For : I believe  in my instincts and in the Universal life force, which has a way of taking care  of all my dreams.

What do you feel?
Please feel free to share them here.